Shadows, Part 3

Sometimes shadows hide things. It’s easy to imagine in the near-dark of late dusk that they cloak monsters or wild animals or evil men, waiting for the last light to fade completely before they leap (or creep) out to attack us. We think that perhaps if we sit very, very still, don’t bat an eyelash, don’t make a sound, barely dare to breathe, we can pass the night unmolested. Or maybe we’re paralyzed because the shadows might be concealing our way. We don’t go forward for fear of missing a signpost or a fork in the road and ending up lost, far from where we set out to go, or just stepping off into a mire of quicksand or over the edge of an unseen precipice. Those dangers are, of course, real possibilities, and sometimes – sometimes – sitting down and waiting for the light to return before moving on may be the wisest course of action. But not always, and never permanently. We can’t stay forever peering out of the makeshift huts we build ourselves on the edges of the shadowy places, which, if we’re at all honest, we know don’t offer any real protection anyway. Sometimes we need to look at the shadows differently through the last shreds of sunset or the final flickers of our guttering torches. Sometimes shadows hide us, screening us from the eyes of those who would harm us, providing us cover to slip past hostile sentinels unnoticed. They may, blessedly, shroud obstacles we would think insurmountable, or veil dangers that would freeze our blood if we could see them clearly. Perhaps they prevent our being deceived into taking what would look, in broad daylight, like a shortcut or an easier road to our intended destination. Shadows might cause us to be more alert to the soft touch of a guiding hand, to listen more closely for a still, small voice.

Another Perspective on Shadows

Baby Girl the Second and I frequently snuggle on the couch for a few minutes just after she wakes up. This morning, her attention was caught by a freestanding stereo speaker directly in front of us and its shadow angled off to the left on the wall behind. "Mom, why doesn't the shadow look the same way?" About five minutes after I showed her that if we moved four feet to the right, in line with the sunlight coming in through the patio door, the shadow matched up with the speaker, it dawned on me. Yeah. The position of the light source in relation to the object determines which way the shadow falls. And how we see it, how distorted it is, depends upon where we are standing in relation to the light source.

Other Trees I Have Been Between

We traveled, unplannedly, this week, to spend time with family members we rarely see, to join together to send Jessie off on her long-planned journey beyond the walls of this world. That is a topic for another post, or several. But, the timing being what it was, there were Christmas trees embedded in the scenery of the event (and not bad, that, seeing everywhere a reminder of the eternal evergreen-ness of life, and of the coming of the One who both made and redeemed our life).

The morning after the funeral, several of us sat in the living room of my parents' house with my mother, and we told my brother's wife and my daughters little bits of our life history, represented by the ornaments on the tree in the corner. The oldest decorations are little plastic bells that Mama has been putting on her tree "as long as I can remember," which is sixty-some years. Then there are the small blue bulbs and the icicles from Mama and Daddy's first Charlie Brown Christmas tree, a month after they were married. There are handcrafted items clearly made by people of varying age and skill, some folks long gone, others just long grown up.

I know my parents' tree is not unique, that many of us decorate our trees in this manner, with those "special" ornaments that we hang in the back, out of sight, because we can't bear to exclude the memories they carry. Our Christmas trees are a chronicle of each holiday season and all the times between, from one year to the next, from childhood to age and beyond.